Written by Aleen

We Are Our Stories.

With this eclipse period, we have all been navigating this liminal space without any grounding. We have walked through many thresholds this year, and personally it feels like a constant shedding of identity. 

This eclipse has felt completely unstable. Even on a day that feels light, there is this sense of not being able to ground. With so much pain in the world juxtaposed by what feels like our own small problems, we find ourselves in a world we didn’t ask for.

The world around us is full of horror and sadness. The worst is so much of it is completely man made and preventable. It’s based on stories. 

And through those stories we watch people make other people sub-human. We hear remarks that are tolerant of death and suffering, justified by their stories. Forgetting we are all so interconnected, how can we watch suffering without suffering ourselves? How can people’s stories create such division?

I have become curious about stories, wondering how much it stops empathy and interdependency. 

When we think about our own stories, sometimes we think of them in polarity. Light or dark, shadows or light, good or bad, egoic or kind. If we were to think of ourselves as a bunch of stories then we may be able to become curious about our own personal complexities. See ourselves as a bunch of overlapping circles, a Venn diagram. Each story within us, each moment, holding both the shadow and the light. 

Through safety, space and correct timing, we access each story to bring it back to balance. A continuous act of recalibration. 

On a personal level, when I access the full spectrum of one of my circles, it leads me one step closer to compassion and empathy. Both towards myself and others. 

I can focus on the lesson. I can let go of the parts of me that thought, this is how its always been, I have always been this way. I can feel lighter by reminding myself we all deserve good, we are all worthy of the dreams we dream. Perhaps this circle, this story, is being asked to be bought back into balance.

It led me to think, does my story build a connection to trust or break it?

When I have dismissed the wholeness of one of my circles, one of my stories, I have dismissed a connection into my intuition. Our stories ground us to earth, to our human-ness and connection to ourselves. It also grounds up, our stories are interconnected to a larger story, to each other, our collective experiences and choices.

When we reduce our own stories to right or wrong, we judge ourselves and others through them. We are heightened, thinking that everything needs to make sense in a linear way, black and white.

Many of us have learnt to exist based on what the people around us are willing to tolerate.

This Libra south node, Aries north node axis is asking us to move into interdependency. A healthy form of dependency. A healthy form of expression. 

My fear on depending on someone was because I was taught that dependency was shameful. We aren’t meant to need or want. Yet as humans, we are so dependent on each other. We are dependent in our own personal lives, to love and be loved. Services, businesses, economies are dependent on us. Our children are dependent on us. Our bodies, our health are dependent on us.

My fear of being dependent was the same energy as blocking love, unable to receive. Through this I am led to think about the word sacrifice. 

Sacrifice, not in the form of martyrdom or giving from an empty cup, rather we are all being asked to release a story that blocks us from depending on one another. 

From not seeing a point of view. Accessing empathy. Not attacking. 

For many of us its layered with fears of what people will think of us, with us having to sacrifice that fear for our responsibility to our expression. 

This eclipse is asking us to become curious about our fears on dependency and how much it stops us from accessing trust. 

It is an act of love to depend on people and for people to depend on us. At this point of our collective experience, we are all being asked to provide this act of love, both to ourselves and others.

Love, Aleen

20 October 2023