Written by Aleen

Do you confuse your mind for your intuition?

Scorpio season always involves a release. One that hits our egos yet at the same time, allows us to finally accept what our intuition has been telling us.

To me that is all that manifestation is. Releasing what we think we want, to then make space for what aligns with our values. This is where the ego death can occur and that is the pressure of Scorpio season.

For many of us the things we want can be tainted by the lens of what we have been taught to want. Societal expectations or pressure from the immediate world around us. We also have a way of forcing our dreams to mould into a journey our minds can perceive. We not only want something specific, but how we want it can be even more restrictive. 

This is where I see people, including myself, get stuck. There is a specific goal or manifestation you want. You have done all the work, passed the test and it feels like it isn’t getting closer. If anything, things feel harder in some ways. You keep wondering, what is the Universe trying to teach you, why is it so hard? 

A lot of the times we confuse our intuition with our mind. How can you tell the difference? 

Intuition is matter of fact. Intuition doesn’t have an emotional charge. What happens though is we receive a message, or have an inner knowing and we then feel some type of way about it, we are the ones that feel emotion towards it. But the message, our intuition, doesn’t have emotion towards us. It just is. 

This pressure from our intuition has come up for many of us this season and it has involved a sunk cost fallacy.  

This is a term to describe when we feel we need to keep trying for something in our life (example - a goal, idea, relationship, decision, manifestation) because we have already ‘sunk’ so much into it. We have put in time, effort, money towards it and it makes it difficult to walk away from it. Even to release the grip of attachment towards it. 

We try and rationalise these situations, we over ride our intuition and keep pushing. Its as if we are The Hanged Man card in tarot, yet instead of hanging calmly waiting for the knowledge to come to us, we thrash around, trying to force it, even when we are stuck. If anything, we stay more stagnant, unfulfilled and emotionally drained. 

I don’t think I have met anyone who has enjoyed receiving this card, including myself. 

My view point changed recently while I was reading The Flowering Wand - Rewilding the Sacred Masculine by Sophie Strand. Below is a snippet from the book.

“The Hanged Man, for me, is the Rooted One. He represents more than a physical inversion. The Rooted One initiates a perspectival shift. We blink, and suddenly the ground becomes the sky. The brain is not abstracted in the head. It lives in and is constituted by the roots. The wisdom of the Rooted One is to relax our ideas about dominant epistemological paradigms, to relax our ideas about how knowledge arrives.”

As I pondered this perspective, especially when at times I felt stuck and was confusing my mind for my intuition, it led me back to a knowing that knowledge can arrive from sources outside of me. My energetic community. 

Your energetic community includes the energy of your past loved ones, spirit guides, ancestors and lineage. It also includes your future energy, past energy, inner child, plants, animals and symbols.

Recently, as I felt the need to release something yet was struggling with my mind, I had a magpie begin to visit me. Every morning, like clockwork, it would fly onto the railings of my balcony. Every living creature relates to a story, a myth or a spiritual symbol. For me, magpies relate to messenger gods and in my research, a specific god from greek mythology called Dionysus. 

As I kept researching about Dionysus, I felt like I was hitting a wall. I wasn’t receiving that intuitive feeling of - it just is. So I let it go, allowing the message to come to me in a way it wanted too. I decided to be still like the Hanged Man, not try and force something for my ego.

A couple days later, in the same book I reached a chapter about Dionysus. How the Romans turned the Greek god into a god of wine, when before he was so much more. An androgynous god, he was about freedom, specifically for woman in their self expression. A wild expression which was rooted in nature and symbols.

My intuition was asking me to follow the symbols laid out by the world around me, my energetic community, to deepen my trust to not always know how things will unfold. 

What our energetic community can provide us is being able to see ourselves through their eyes. See the journey we are on, the current challenges or decisions from their birds eye view, instead of the limited lens of our mind. 

Through their messages it reminded me that how I want things is still rooted in how I think it should happen that would please my ego the most. And Scorpio season pressured me to let that idea go. 

To let go of the idea that I know the best way all the time. That the safety I have created in my attachment to the “how” is actually stopping me from receiving in ways that align better to my values. That my next step always reveals itself by my energetic community. The pace is set based on things working out, not the pressure I place on it working out through my egos timing.

I know for many of us, letting go, releasing or pivoting can bring up triggers around shame. 

There can be this feeling of embarrassment come up when you feel like you have to let go of something you have put in a lot of effort towards. Even if it is a manifestation you hope to receive. 

Yet doing so opens us up to new doors that may actually serve us better. It has us look at our control dynamics with the world around us and at the same time, allows us to breath a little deeper, trusting that maybe we are supported by something bigger then us. 

Love, Aleen

16 November 2023