Written by Aleen

Pisces Full Moon

When we think about Pisces, the common thoughts about neptunian ethereal illusion can come up. A dissolving of boundaries between this world and the unseen. An embodiment of intuition. 

As the final sign of the zodiac, Pisces tends to be categorised as mystical and the final part of the journey. Through a mind based lens that can create this idea that Pisces lives in their own world, disconnected from reality, chasing something that isn’t really there. 

I recently learnt about the Cassandra curse and its very real experience for people. It is historically linked to woman and it being a source of “hysteria”, a negative view of a women showcasing strong emotion, acting crazy. It is why the word hysterical is used to minimise a person having strong emotions (Oh, what brilliant strategy, nothing says “social progress” quite like belittling someone’s feelings by likening them to one of a “crazy woman”).

The moon is a symbol of our emotions, the Full moon is a time of release. Pisces is trust and the unseen. We all have Pisces in our chart and with this Full Moon in Pisces, we are all being uncomfortably pushed to seeing how we relate back to ourselves, or react, when we feel unheard, unseen or not believed.

Even though the High Priestess is not the traditional ruler of Pisces in Tarot (The Moon card is), I kept pulling it when I was channelling details for the Full Moon in Pisces. I knew that this card was offering its wisdom on how to best process this energy, especially as we are asked to let go whilst simultaneously not knowing where it will lead. On the card, the figure sits in front of two pillars, she is the access point to a part of our story that we can’t see yet. If you are wanting something in your life, she is the access point that asks you to trust.

I speak about the woman on the card as an actual person, yet the High Priestess is an energy taking the form of a person. She represents the unconscious. 

The card itself isn’t actually light, fun intuition. A lighter version would be the embodied Empress card. The High Priestess isn’t gentle. She knows what you need and doesn’t care if you are afraid. She looks at the energy of what you are here to move through, what you are here to become, not the energy of your fears. She doesn’t care if you are worried about what people will think of you or what you are worried about happening. 

When looking at the High Priestess from that lens, she can feel harsh and truthfully unfair.

Intuition can feel unfair. Why can’t we have evidence that it will work out? 

I connect the The High Priestess to the crone archetype, who in a modern lens has been turned into the evil stepmother in fairytales. The crone is the third part of the feminine journey, moving from maiden, mother to crone. 

Note, you don’t have to physically become a mother to move through this energy. It’s the journey from being innocent and naive to realising you have to learn to take care of yourself and take charge of your own story. The final step is becoming the crone which is the wise woman. 

The wise woman mythically is the older woman. She knows what you need and isn’t always the kindest in her delivery - hence how she has turned into the evil stepmother, pushing the maiden out of her innocence through her villain form. In many fairytales, without the evil stepmother, the maiden would never go on her hero’s journey. She would never become who she is meant to be. 

The Cassandra curse has a similar unfair lens. Apollo the Greek God (who represents thinking over feeling, evidence and order) gave a mortal Cassandra the gift of psychic foresight. When Apollo attempted to make “romantic” advances, Cassandra rejected him. Bruised ego (the Greek Gods had very sensitive egos) Apollo cursed her. Cassandra had the gift of foresight and the curse that no one would ever believe her. She would try to warn everyone about impending danger (think the Trojan war) and people would laugh at her. 

How unfair. 

The truth is, sometimes thats how we feel when it comes to intuition. What our intuition is telling us doesn’t always feel fair. Sometimes when we speak up about how we feel, do something scary, follow our intuition, instead of being rewarded, we are somehow then being punished - especially when there is a collective belief that following your intuition (your heart, your truth) will lead to some form of success.

I don’t say this from a place of negativity, rather an acknowledgement. Following your intuition is not always easy. Yet that doesn’t mean it’s wrong.

Following our intuition is not always meant to lead us where we can predict, where we expect. It is about accessing trust and hope and knowing, that your becoming, you receiving, includes the full facet of experiences.

It’s not always meant to be “easy” and our obsession with ease keeps us feeling like we have done the wrong thing when things get hard, thinking somehow something bigger then us is testing us, punishing us. Maybe I am writing this for myself. When in periods where you have followed your intuition yet it feels like nothing ever will come of it, there is this feeling that feels like a void. And sometimes that void feels like it will never end.

I have been single for so long..

I have been working on this for so long..

I have been trying to do this for so long.. and nothing is working out. 

When in the thick of these periods, I definitely don’t want to hear the constant spiritual bypass of trust. That it is all working out and all I need to do is find fulfilment, find a point of gratitude in this very moment. Even though I know deep down there is truth in it, that’s only one part.

What if we could hold both parts up to the light, this is both unfair and working out in my favour. This is both very hard and also the right thing to do. I am mad at you but I also understand why you did it. 

The High Priestess is not about spiritual bypassing, trying to positively think your way through life. The things that happen in our life are hard, yes they can work out in our favour but they are (or were) still very hard. 

I notice it in people, you tell a problem to someone and they immediately give you what they believe is the best solution. But what if I knew the solution, what if I was saying something because I wasn’t giving myself permission in finding something difficult, and was hoping someone else would give me that permission. 

Yes, this Full Moon is about trust, following your intuition and letting go but in the same breath it is about acknowledging where it feels unfair. Right now your intuition might be asking you to do something that you have no idea where it will lead you. No idea if it will be worth it or not. You are allowed to acknowledge the fear. You are allowed to be both scared and strong, unsure and sure. 

This is not a a time to try and do it alone. The High Priestess is the collective unconscious. Key word collective. Speak up, tell a trusted friend, therapist, person. Don’t hold your fears in. You are not alone in feeling them. And maybe that is the scariest part of all. Not knowing what will happen if you do acknowledge your fears out loud. 

When it comes to release, this full moon asks you to release what you feel is unfair by acknowledging it. By accepting that sometimes things can be hard and that doesn’t make you weak or that you don’t know what to do. It is one part of the experience. 

The worst feeling is the feeling of being alone. This weird thing we do in the age of social media that somehow what I am going through no one else is or has. This is both my permission slip and yours to know you are allowed to feel something is unfair whilst also trying your best to get through it. You are not alone. 

Love, Aleen

31 August 2023